Yes, I know that some of the official positions of the Church are difficult. Many Catholics struggle with them. I also know that the existence of God is open to debate. I am no stranger to dark nights of the soul. But the point is, however dark, those nights are of the soul. I have always sensed the real presence of souls within persons. I have sensed transcendent possibilities, higher realms. This idealism, and belief that love is the single most important virtue and gift, made me attentive to the Sermon on the Mount. Christ is the wisest teacher of all. And more. This is my faith, my belief - and it is not one I would ever want to compel another to follow. But should anyone wonder how to navigate this difficult passage known as life, I would suggest that faith offers as much or more, than abject nihilism. Despair tastes good on the cynic's tongue for a few hours, but stales in time.