Three nights or seven by the river
Under the earth and out to forage
No one loves me, I have no Dad
But I am the raging man of my age
The taker, not the giver –
A blam-blam in the brainpain
Of the blindsided copper
And flowers for Himmler
Who had no balls
Fuck Rooney and Co.
I have no woman and no flag
Am a pumped up anti-fag
Who’ll kick at pricks, cunts and wogs
And lie down with dogs
When the infrared lines my sleep
Like a mother’s arm
To reveal my head dreaming
If not the dreams I keep
You can’t Rambo this away
Or lie about being a pig
If you work for them it’s not for me
And these days every man for himself
Really means fuck the poor and the North
What’s a working Dad worth
When the club closes and the music fades?
So I killed her a bit and hid
In woods I knew as well as my palm as a kid
And made the bastards hunt me like a stag
But they caught me, finally they did
And no one alive loves me now
Or loved me then
Except the ones who rushed to my side
During the stand-off, kept back
For their own safety, so they didn’t say to me
We love you, we love you at all
Out of remote control again
Breaking out like a fist into a face
I found a hard place and made it mine
And a trigger is a devil’s trident
Bent into an angel’s grace.
They killed me where they found me
By the stream in the pissing rain
A rat to them, a husband in name
A killer and blinder and wounder.
My blood was forgotten in a small river.
For a second before or after
I felt myself fill with a quiver
Then was just chip shop’s newspaper.
poem by Todd Swift
Comments
Am a pumped up anti-fag
Who’ll kick at pricks, cunts and wogs'
What did this man's rage have to do with homophobia and racism? Am I missing something here?
thanks for sharing
martine
Also, I agree with you about Polanski. He should have faced justice, but actually didn't, really. I don't dismiss him as a 100% despicable human being, yet, somehow, he has gotten off scot-free for things which most people who have done the same things, would be branded and stigmatized. He should be punished. When the punishment is not equal, then neither can forgiveness.
I don't agree with you about Cameron/Clegg and smaller government, though. I used to be a liberal (in Canada, in a universal sense, or more of a leftist even). But the newly bred conservative in me judges smaller government - the disappearance of ID cards, and greater roles given to people in the nation instead of artificially, through government - all of these are good things.
You are right of course; the possibility is not 'beside the point' (as I said) but non-existent, as we 'cannot libel the dead.' My apologies.
'As for a fictitious figure ghosting a real one - well, no - as I said, the persona of the poem (as poets we really should know this by now) is always a composite of the poet (me), and any number of sources, real and imaginary.'
This seems a bit disingenuous to me Todd. Of course all personae are composites in that sense, but the leading man of your ballad does not have to be a 'photographically identical picture' to qualify as a recognisable figure, which by your own admission is Moat. If your ballad were more obviously a composite of (besides with your own raging persona) 'Grendel, Heathcliff, Byron and other famous "outsider figures"' it would be an entirely different poem: I wouldn't have commented, and there would have been no cause to ask that 'good question' in the first place.
'- it is essential, as a poet, to defend the right to speak to current events without fear of being held accountable, as if a journalist...'
You have the right to do as you please Todd. But if one enters topical, journalistic territory I believe this calls for 'accountable' journalistic caution. That of course is merely my opinion, my aesthetic, which are no doubt radically different to yours.
Regarding 'In Cold Blood', I have mixed feelings about it, and about Capote too. Mailer's Executioner's Song is probably a better book (about a similar subject) and Badlands is a far better movie. Many films/novels/ballads rework the more lurid news stories. Some of them do this brilliantly and some are downright grotesque; I believe Paul Durcan is one of the few poets who managed to make extraordinary tragic/comic poetry out of current news stories. It's a VERY difficult thing to pull off, which is just one reason why I rarely attempt it.