I usually write a brief report on the year, from my perspective, at the end of each 12-month cycle - sometimes closer to Christmas, or after.
Of late, they've been relatively solemn, and the main message has been gratitude. I have been grateful for the medical care and treatment that has allowed my failing heart to recover somewhat, at least temporarily, and for the chance to live a few more years. I was hospitalised in the summer with Sepsis and was in for many days and it was terrifying, but made it through.
I have also been grateful for the love and support of my partner, the hard work and talent of my publishing team, my friends, and those authors and investors that have miraculously helped stave off collapse of BSPG.
So it is, this year, that message remains the same.
I wish to add a few more things, though - this past year has been very painful, sad, and filled with some brief good moments of shared memories. I spent several weeks with someone very closely related to me who is facing terminal cancer at a cottage by a lake in Quebec in the summer, and it brought back the best times of our youth - swimming, playing Scrabble, marshmallows by the campfire...
The Paris Olympics was on, and my mother loved the Games, and we watched many events together on TV.
Another highlight of the year was celebrating the 40th birthday of my cousin/friend Andrew, in a small village in Scotland, in the house that Beatrix Potter wrote Peter Rabbit. We also attended the beautiful Irish wedding of our friends Sally and Susan, in Ireland, which had one of the best wedding disco dances afterwards. Also, being able to spend Christmas with friends and family was especially poignant this year. A further highlight eas having my new collection of poems published.
One of the key losses of the year was the death of my "Uncle", Harold Wilson. Although actually the married husband of my father's cousin, Harry, when young, enchanted and informed my brother and I with countless hours of strategy gaming, and taught us history at the same time. Harry was a brilliant scientist and teacher, but he loved sports and games and history as well.
I have other things to say about 2024.
I will say, what we all know, it has been a very dark disappointing worrying year politically - violent, negative, indicating a return to a kind of voting we had thought left in the 1940s. So many have died or suffered.
Like all thinking and feeling beings, I search for a higher hope or meaning, to offset this evil that seems to encase or inform the way we behave. I find a word for the hope in the word God, which I also struggle with. Another word might be Love.
Perhaps the best word would be Mercy; it seems lacking now, as much as at any time. No quarter is given, no foe forgiven, peace rarely forged - the cruel satisfactions of revenge trumping empathy, kindness, or a sense of tempering the blow.
I wish you love and mercy in 2025. I may say more later, but for now, this has been the way of this year, at the deepest level of my being.
Be well.
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